Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Oh, Boy!

...or girl. Yep. I'm pregnant. OMG. WTF?

I'm taking a deep breath and just trying not to have another panic attack, but it's the truth. I'm about 7 weeks now. I'll go and see the midwife December 11th for my first appointment.

Right now I'm nervous, ambivalent, annoyed, hopeful, doubtful, scared and stunned. I mean, obviously, I know HOW it happened but it doesn't lessen the shock value. The reason I am all of the aforementioned feelings: John is leaving for deployment not to return until the week the baby is due in July. After that, we will be moving to our next duty station in August where Turner will start preschool.

I can't believe all of that is going to happen in the summer of 2010. I'm scared the boys will react adversely, Turner will hate all the associations, Eli will become even crazier and a third child will never get much but dragged around. I have two hands and am, at most, a married single mother. I can't believe I'm going to have to explain where daddy is to three little faces.

As much as I want to cry and sleep, I can't. I have a job to do and I intend on doing it well. While John is gone, the boys and I are going to make the most of the time we have together and I'm going to do everything in my power to be so organized (muah hahahaha) that we have a smooth transition from a family of four to a family of FIVE.

4 comments:

Tiffany Walensky said...

Wow! Im sure it will be hard, but I know you will do great, you are such a good mom! Maybe you'll get a girl this time..

Sarah said...

Oh my goodness!!! I don't know what else to say..... At least you will be so busy, you wont notice being tired.
Dig in those heels mama! You will find a way to make it work. I know I don't live close but anytime you want to whine and cry, please know that I am a willing listener!
Thank God for baby carriers! You can wrap that new lil one up nice and tight so you can still chase the other two any where you go.

THE BELL BABIES said...

Nellie only you would be up for this challenge and that's a great thing because you are an amazing mother. Any you know what, it could always be worse, you could be having twins.
It will be ok because Turner will be in Preschool and Ollie pretty much does his own thing.
The hard times will be in the morning when you are trying to get out of the house and in the evenings when you are alone and trying to get dinner ready.
I guess it's time for a minivan!!!
;)

Christine said...

THINKING PINK!!! :)

Love ya Nellie! You'll do great!! :)

Seriously, you are awesome, amazing, and kick-ass... you can dooo eeet! <3